My final words to you

The words you last said are still written on the walls of my mind,
the lies that you tell me are slowly leading to my demise,
can't you tell when you look into my eyes,
see I told you every thing that there was to prove to you,
how much I was there for you and how true I was for you,
you always said " you don't . ..." ,
so is this the way your testing it ?
I'm sure I passed that exam with FLYING colors ?
but I am trying to make less of this,
but when I look at you my mind gets fryed,
see I hate this B/c I still have all thies feelings inside,
I'm facing you and I'm losing this battle,
so your the wild horse & I fell of your saddle,
but I'm still tied to you,
your dragging me along the forbidden path your taking,
But I am ridiculous and Stupid,
I'm struggling to set my self free,
Unlock the chain you have around me,
& I'm almost there, almost free,
It is just that I don't want to,
so your holding me down without having to try to,
It's the memories I have never forgotten,
the day you said I Love you,
the day you grabbed my hand and made love to me,
the things you did to change my point of view,
Like you said to me once,
" It just hit me, I was trying to stack potatoes & all I could think of was you "
I can't believe all those memories are just becoming our past,
but it is Love that we have shared together and that will forever last.
so I'm not going to end off with begging and pleading,
I'm tired fed up and done with this bleeding,
Weather you remember or not, I do,
You can lie and say it was not true,
but thats fine 'll just laugh at you,
B/c I remember every thing you said & every thing you once did just for me,
I'm happy and thats the best thing for me.

Kay Kosta I'm Finally done, I don't know if it will help,
but I already feel a bit better, I'm doing it for you.