Shame Game

Did you know we are playing a game?
It is so stupid, but I'm addicted like,
The crack sniffer to the crack,
see it is that kind of thing that has me itching my skinn
Like the feeling of fending for something,
but It is a slow death thats starts off sweet,
I'm hallucinating, Like I have been stuck in the desert to long,
well, I have.... the one my mind unconsciously creates ,
Like the stories you tell me that you know you don't even believe,
Like the fake tan girls parade around with on the beach, and tell you the orange tint is real ?
see I'm on a acid tripp, but reverse, all the bright colors have gone Grey,
see I use to be warm standing tall like the sun, but now I'm below zero,
see a picture says a 1000 words, but what dose the silence say?
I never knew the silence could be so loud, I hear the screams of a broken heart,
but the rules of the game are confusing, B/c when I thought I was winning, you told me I was wrong,
I Played the wrong way, I never should have trusted you advice to move a space forward.