I was thinking...

Looking back in the past,
I see how beautiful and too good things were to last,
I remember running home in the dark,
so there was no way I could not see you tomorrow in the park,
I remember drawing you picture on a piece of paper,
Just to keep it hidden & tell you about it much latter,
I remember every thing you tought me about life,
How I was truly beautiful aww how nice,
see you were the first to open me up,
Like I was so clear to you like a glass cup,
I thought it was going good for us,
Like sitting and kissing hiding in the back of the bus,
Making love on the windowsill at 12: oo am,
Telling me you never want me to leave again,
now you want me to disappear from you,
Like you never loved me & your glad we're threw,
but it was funny how I was not the first one saying I love and need you,
Last time I checked you thought about me at work?, I swear you did, did you ?,
I was making you look foolish,
Like you have been sniffing Nail polish,
but you wanted two see,
It was never enough to just have me,
see I remember all the cute things,
Like The memories " angry little person" Brings,
I wish I could tell you how I feel,
I want to remind you it was not fake but REAL,
Wow thats intense insane,
I guess I need mental help with my brain,
I get told day in and day out,
that if thats love it is not what it is really about,
See you said I was your every thing,
I was all you ever wanted,
I'll keep it real baby,
I'm the best that ever done it,
but I guess she feels better then I ever did,
I guess she makes you bust like your getting rid,
But look in her eyes,
do they feel as warm as mine?,
and dose her hair fall on your face like mine?,
and her teeth grind like mine,
when your hitting it from behind?,
Can she make you melt even when It is cold out side,
Baby,
Please?,
Can I . ..
I just need a second to get it together,
Did you just say you know I am better,
Then hurry over I want to strip you of your sweater!,
I want to go for walks till my feet burn,
and dance around your house till my legs give in.
I want to take you back all the way back,
to where you and I started to begin?